THE CLOWN AND WORM (continue from Whirl-Pool). Before watching over our mind,we are so happy to play around with our defilements within our self.After the watching of our mind,realized that the world of mind is nothing - An affair of attachment,and affair of craving.....So sad,all the while we act like a clown in the circus.A moment we laugh,a moment we cry.Performing the repeat round of sadness and happiness,by responding to endless Like and Dislike,anger,proud,suspicions...etc. we are just like a worm,living in the filth,happy to stay and to die in the filth. Alas, If we truly watch carefully,we'll see and be shamed over what we have actually responded.Our responses are those immoral cittas(The defilements),responding to those are not worthy-I'm a really good for nothing and a foolish man. we are not only unacquainted to the Five aggregates.Worst,we unacquaint to the deceiving nature of our own mind. Watching our mind carefully and mindfully.Whatever the arisen,the attachment of sight,sound,tast,sensation ...See what we are doing....The endless desires...The stirring up...The longing...To be and to have...again and again..To ferment the endless desires,running frantically all over the place...Alas..This is called "addicted". In the world of our sensation is nothing - An affair of craving and an affair of being addicted.Making our desire ferment out unnecessarily and looking for trouble for ourselves by making more addictions to our Five aggregates and mind only. Keep on mindfully and with discernment.As soon as arisen in mind the attachment or defilement by way of eye,ear,nose....One should see and understand it leads to endless suffering and addictions.Those are like "drugs",those could harm us.One should relinquish and turn away,to prevent being addicted and harmed.Or quickly let go of the red hot metal ball from our hand before get burn. For those who have truly seen will be willing to put their effort to work for the freedom from suffering,gain control of the defilements - By disengaging (let go) those things....those that arise in mind are not worthy of Attachment.Make an effort to attain what we are suppose to attain,reach what we are suppose to reach by oneself. Beings are blind-folded by many layers of defilements and are addicted by way from Five senses,unacquainted to the deceit nature of mind.This world to them is full of fun and attractions...they pursue..they proud..they boast..and addicted.This is very difficult for being to understand "The Way Out". Beings are like flying insects,plunge themselves into the flame of candle,get themselves burnt....

Whirl-pool.

To practice of watching over our mind,we need to have meditation and establish some basic orders: The precepts and the Middle way of justifying things. Base on these principles to gauge things inside us.Fully utilize our power of observation, mindful and discernment to exam things within. Not simply act in line with Like and Dislike by our wanting. But something accord with the precepts and Middle way of justification instead. Observation, Mindfulness,Discernment are the tools necessary for us to stay awake in meditation as well as in our daily life. Precepts and Middle way of justify thing made a stand point for our mind to stand rightly. When the mind takes it's stance,accord with the precepts,not jumble everything up,then we can proceed to look into the world of mind,to see how the defilements come into beings and how we make our self involves with the external things. In turn realized what our suffering caused. If we truly look at each mental movement inwardly,not to involve with the external things.Whatever thing arises,simply to look and know it, pure and simple,no "us" no "them".we'll see every mental movement arise and disband by itself naturally. No harm can comes from the joy and sorrow (in pair),if the mind stays in neutrality. In such condition,we'll find our mind empty- no attachment to anything.Freedom,peace and calm. This mind is neither birth nor death,but an awaken mind,available and capable for contemplating. If we get involve with the external things through the contacts of our Five aggregates,then the mind starts to concoct thought-formations,label and fashion things into pairs of feeling-Like and Dislike,happy and sad,restlessly latch on to the attachments,waver all sorts of thought. In such a condition,this mind is no longer empty- attachment.Mind is influenced by the defilement.Minds is birth,because attach to things and start to accumulate Karmas,leave seeds before death(disband). Beside our mind grasps external things,our mind also grasps to the internal defilements,engages "like and Dislike",arises desire. For the sick of desire,it generates many ideas.Sometime,mind makes drama,performs movie shows inside our body.We are the Director of our inner movies,an actor,an audience. We engross those ideas in our inner movies and attached to thing and function of mind firmly.In fact,those mental movements(beings) arise and disband with it's cause and condition,temporary and no self. Both the external and internal beings are a liked.It arises,persist, disband (death).All events arise and disband naturally.The entire world is nothing,the affair of Attachment,affair of Craving,and the affair of repeating round of pain and suffering -Birth,age,death. Avija..Sankhra..Vinnana..Namarupa..Salayatana..Phassa..Vedana..Tanha..Upadana..Bhava..Kati..Jara-marana..... Craving wanting to be and to have again and again,keeps on repeat responding to the Attachments. Living in midst of suffering-Birth,aging,illness and death.Yet,Attachments and Craving keep focus on pleasure,driving us into the world of Samsara-repeat the pain and suffering,and yet,we are not aware of it. Delusion makes us forget that we are living in the midst of suffering,cloud our self from seeing the truth. In fact of unstable ,and the aspect of change and inconstancy,but we see it as permanent ,and the aspect of good and gain of pleasure,pertaining to oneself. The reason of this delusion is because we un-acquaint with the Five aggregates-The perception,thought and feeling etc..and the Twelve links.Because we are alive and conscious,through the contacts of external world,our perception,thought,feeling will naturally arise,and it happens on it's own(no self).We aware and understand such nature,do not latch onto them as bring our self.We need to justify before select as our ideas. We are just living with the Five aggregates,it is the consciousness in action only. We watching over our mind,using our mind to see the mind,know the mind,realize the mind.From it's suffer,know the it's suffer,and understand our suffer.No one can help us,only our self. This is through the practice of watching over our mind,enable us to know how ignorance we are.Because we take defilements and Five aggregates as "I",not understand the Karma- Good begets good, bad begets bad.Yet,we only chase after pleasure,and make the Craving more bigger,and we claim those are "self",and with our common nature of Loving kindness that we called "personality".In fact "I" does not exist.What really exist in man are Citta,Cetasikas and Rupa,and our common true nature of Pure and Loving kindness.Because of this true nature of Loving kindness,that we grieve and pain over our misdeeds,and compassion to others The main reasons of suffering that we have been stumbling in life is because we un acquaint to Five aggregates and it's nature(characteristic).Unable to see through our illusion caused by Five aggregates.We are the captives of our sensation,living in the sensational world of whirl-pool. For those who's mind no longer hassle by defilement,skill in get rid of delusion and leave no opening for craving to stir up the mind to wandering,is a true master of him "self" .

Jhanas meditation

Jhanas meditation is a very subtle matter.Doing meditation is like us going out from city life,and enter into remote life,no body is around us,only our self. In such environment,normally one will recall those things around us. Similarly in meditation.Meditation is to cut off both the external and internal factors ,and look into the world of mind. Our mind normally engages with defilements,making it very difficult to keep calm when meditation.If we try seriously to make it continue,it's much difficult.Only we try to be as an observant in relaxation and without any objective,then the mind will settle down slowly. In the world of mind.There are: Kama-loka,Rupa-loka,Arupa-loka,and Pure existence. Those are the memories recorded by our mind.It remembered the various existences of our past in which where we came from. In Kama-loka Jhana,we experience many wandering thoughts-Many Like and dislikes. In Rupa-loka Jhana,we experience Initail,Sustaine,Joy,Ecstatic bliss (happiness) one after the other . When attain ecstatic joy (happiness),one can remain in meditation for few hours or few days. The importance is the happiness fades down (reduce) before the end of Rupa-loka Jhana In Arupa-loka Jhana,the feeling of happiness is lesser then Rupe-loka Jhana. In Arupa-loka Jhana,our mind sees (perceives)the: Infinite space,Endless space,Nothingness,Perception neither exists nor does not exist. Finally,we clearly see the Pure existence immediately after the Arupa-loka Jhana. But due to our human body is composed of Rupa and Nama.Started from our mind (Nama)perceiving Rupa-loka Jhana till the Pure existence.Our mind is further and further from our body(Rupa). When our mind reaches Pure existence,our body(Rupa)no longer can sustain and support the Mind (Nama) further away.Our nature fights for survival and caused the Fear to arise.As it is a danger to one own existence due to our limitation. The importance is we clearly saw the Pure existence-Our mind knows that-This is Pur existence In Jhana meditation,craving strongly supported and maintenance the strengths of concentration.Craving dominates all levels of existences.Except at the end before the Arup-loka Jhana,And the Pure existence. That mean,the lower the existence,the higher the craving.The higher the existence,lower the craving.The total wiped out of craving leading to exist from Samsara,toward Pure existence,and find the way home. Due to the eradication of craving and the mind calm in the attainment of Jhanas.and our memory no refreshment caused by long time in meditation.One'll feel body very weak,and feel like living in different world after attended the Jhanas. All the difficulties can over come by one self slowly later. From this Jhana meditation,we'll realized that our down-fall, from Pur existence to Arupa-loka,again down-fall to Rupa-loka,reach to Kama-loka(human world),are because of our craving, .This Craving blinds us from one existence down-fall to lower existence . Can we imagine,if we're not relying our own effort to eradicate our Craving,but to look for other external agency to save us? In fact,we are the one who manipulate our own fate and our destiny.No one can help us! May the Buddha,Dhamma,Sangha shine for ever May the supreme knowledge of Dhamma ever enlighten the whole world.

My Mother

My Mother MY mother has many children,but my mother has her mind sets and aims rightly at me all times.She likes to blame me for nothing. The very simple reason is because she mixed up her personal affection and feeling toward me. Environment makes in such a way that I have to discharge my duty toward those surrounding me.Often in return I'm not reserved of what I'm supposed.But trouble keep on besetting me from surrounding.In her eye,I'm in great suffering. Pain sticking in her heart.Seeing the misfortune of my life,beseted by her love at her wits end,she could only blame me for what I done. I saw her,breathlessly blaming me in her old ages,and what she blamed are all in turmoil...... Whatever right or wrong she blamed is not the matter.But I'm sad...I sad to have her involved...I touch to have her blamed(Love).... In her eye,I'm a special people in her family - A helpless,A suffering being since teens. In such environment that I'm an elder son,a breadwinner for family of eight. In her eye of my mother,I'm the one indeed of help from heaven.But I in fate no reserve myself anything in return.I'm grateful and thankful for her blames(Love). In my countless of rebirths,all parents have given me their loves could be like her. Whenever it arises of those parental loves in my heart,I'm touched and aware the existence of all my dear parents's love..What more do I need to have?Beneath under the sky,I need nothing - I don't need anything on earth.All things on earth are not longer important to me.Whatever the personal affection or any failure,mishap in life,those are defilements of delusion by environment and the Karma caused.What I have of what I had are those who do not understand - The forever and the deathless of my parental love,that those countless parents have given and infused.This is an immense love towards all beings. This is the calling of all parental loves that awake my immense love - This is the result of all loves keep on pushing behind,till I recognize it - I found it. I gotten it - The reality,suffice whatever,uni in oneness,supreme whatever in completeness - Our Real State Of Nature - Have you ever seen this place? can you recognize this place? This is the place where we from - Our Home. With this immense love enable me to understand the Buddha Teaching - The Sacred,Supreme,Unsurpassed . Although the Enlightenment far away from me,but I would like to take this opportunity to express my sincere gratitude to those who ever help me and family in one way or other when time of our difficulty. I'm not forget of what people help me in the past.Therefore,I write this article with my purpose of attributing them.May they gain merit,be well and happy.The other purpose is in the hope for those who pursuit the Buddha Teaching,some may find helpful.May all share the merits,free from danger and attain Enlightenment. Hopefully this world we visited,is a place of departure on our journey of enlightenment. May we light up our mind,and light up the mind of others.May they free from suffering... From: A helpless,A suffer being.

Flare Up

As a parents, if they heard that their son is seriously sick,or hurt by someone,his hand broken( eg only) etc.Our minds will flare up to maximum.We feel want to fight,to blow up.Hence our horns grow. Look at this,this is parental love.Our past lives parents planted their mind in our hearts before they past away. Whenever we faced any problem in life.This parental consciousness (angry) will rush up blindly.Wishing to protect us at cost of their lives. Whatever slightest critic or hurt from others.All of their affairs flare up. In meditation.We begin with mindfulness on breath,when the mind sinks,we experience joy.The importance to understand is the way of mind.It sinks to have happiness.Just like our parents sleep peacefully,let not to disturb them. In life,I'm often involved with small little trifles,make them flare up a rang while they' re asleep. In countless of rebirths,I did not realize the existence of parental love in mind.I simply let them involve and suffer. I regret over my cruelty and misdeed.I promise myself not to flare up but to let them rest comfortably,peacefully and happily in the future .I seek their forgiveness and I'll keep watching over my mind for not to make them flare up again and agein. May they be well and happy. Keep watching over our mind.Read and deciphering things within our mind.See the activities of mind making LIKE and DISLIKE.Focus on keeping the mind centered.See how our mind labling things.Till one day we'll understand what things are into the state of mind.It will wander off in various ways in pursuit and stir up.Stay focused on,being aware the mental stability.Not to do anything,but just let the mind stay neutral and equanimous ( equanimity) .Till the wander off and disappear by it self. Keep mind stable within itself.The one who knows,the one who sees,the one realize .