The Deprive World (1)

Before watching over our mind,I thought I'm a wonderful "GOOD MAN"But after the watching over our mind,realized that I'm really...really..NOT GOOD..very shamed.. Watching the mind,sees the mind,close look the mind...I disagree with my mind,I blame my mind like a mother blame her only son..for making me awhile Happy Clown...awhile Sad clown...Angry Clown...as a worm...happy to stay...eat..die...in filth..Made me shame and run over every where to look for wantings...Full of all kinds of tricks...So sad...Make sure get it changed or else do not follow me...I'll give close supervision on you(mind),As you had addicted to the pleasant feelings,do not keep on satisfy it again and again!Always be alert ! whatever the arise of urge for pleasure or demanding on Like and Dislike.Do not latch on to it!Should have it identify,and quickly turn away!Pleasant feeling is connected to defilements of passion and craving.It leads to wanting for more delicious flavor on stronger feeling of demand,unable to exit from the deepen sea of addictives,that made for oneself.On the other words,as soon as there's an attachment arise,we should sees the suffering .Bring unacquish to the Five aggregates and mind-The Five aggregates want to enjoy the pleasant feeling and the mind help it recognize and support. from now onward,I'm going to train the mind.I'll change my meditation method to suit my purposes - Sustain effort..bring it backs to neutral,keep still..If it runs away,bring it backs to center...keep it still...Not to engage to the ecstatic joy...If pain arise...endure..endure... Train the mind not to cling to the pleasant feeling ("Like") ,in meditation.So that the mind will not chase after wanting (pleasant feeling)in life. When we doing the meditation,we often encounter legs pain,we train our mind to undertake a litter bit of stress on pain,made the mind endure the suffer practically.Previously mind isn't really understand the suffer.But through this practic of endurance,mind will fully understand the Suffer,and capable to endure stress. Ones the mind really understand the meaning of Suffering,so when we open our eyes after meditation,on facing the "Like and Dislike",we could face more comfortably.Because it wouldn't get agitate easily.The degree of comfort is depended our efforts. We have to change our legs posture slowly if we feel numb.Constantly practice,untill we really understand the entire existences are inconstancy ,suffer and no self. If we keep on practice with endurance on pain,we'll found we have lesser and lesser anger.The duration of time between the two angers are longer and longer. TBC